I do this to myself every month. During my two week wait, I youtube happy videos. Happy videos of couples who have struggled with infertility, and are now pregnant. And I cry. And I cry. And I cry. I am so over joyed that these couple have kicked infertility’s ass. That they didn’t let a diagnosis of endometriosis, or PCOS, or the glorious “unexplained” stop them from having their family. And I am hopeful. I am hopeful for Joseph and I. I know God has placed these incredible doctors, and given them incredible medical knowledge and techniques and procedures to come out on top of infertility. And I am hopeful, that some of these, all of these, any of these will help grow our family when the timing is right.