Monthly Archives: May 2014

What scares me the most.

A lot of women have fear about delivery. The unknown. I have two fears about that wonderful day that will be here in the 32 weeks.

1. Joseph. My husband is a type 1 diabetic. He was dx at 21, after we had been married for 2 months. His diagnosis was a scary scary thing, and I’m so thankful we have such wonderful supportive families who drove(past every hospital in town) to bring us clothes and offer us support as we stayed in the ICU. Since then, Joseph has done amazing. He has great control, both of his blood sugars and his impulses. However, when we spent four hours in the ER when I was bleeding, it was enough to get his adrenaline pumping, which has crazy effects on blood sugar. So the endorphins, adrenaline, and anxiety/nervousness around delivery makes me nervous about him. Blood sugar is a weird thing, and there is no predicting it. I just want him to be healthy, comfortable, and coherent through everything.

2. Episiotomy. I hate the idea of one. I don’t want one, honestly I’d rather have a c-section than an episiotomy. I think it is just something I’m going to have to be super clear about with my OB. I don’t want one, if she is really into giving one, then I’ll find a different OB. I don’t want one. Ouch.

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Pregnant and sex.

When we first found out we were pregnant. It had been three days since we last had sex. We decided together we wouldn’t partake in relations until our first ultrasound. Mainly because our last loss, we had initial bleeding after sex, we were assured it was ok just a sensitive cervix, I knew it wasn’t. So we waited til we saw a heart beat. We saw a heart beat Thursday, and I was too tired Thursday and Friday, thinking the weekend would be perfect. I started bleeding on Saturday, ER Saturday ultrasound revealed subchorionic hemorrhage, pelvic rest until we followed up with our RE. Five days later we followed up, hemorrhage hasn’t changed, continue pelvic rest. Today at our ultrasound 8w4d hemorrhage was gone! So, after five and half weeks, sex is on. In fact. Joseph took a half day, we came home, I laid down to take a nap, and couldn’t sleep, so I beckoned Joseph in for a little romp. Pregnant sex is nice, hope to have more of it now that we’re cleared.

Pizza miscommunication

Today we had our last ultrasound with our RE. We are so thankful our big headed, beating heart baby is growing well. Afterwards I convince Joseph to take me to lunch at California Pizza Kitchen. I order BBQ chicken pizza and only at three out of the eight slices. And they were the smallest. We discussed that I could eat the rest for dinner. Fastforward five hours, and Joseph is making himself a grilled cheese(have I mentioned how bad I am at cooking since the nausea has set it?) so I ask him to preheat the oven and put in the pizza stone. He kindly does. I hear the oven beep, and set my timer foe thirty minutes to preheat the pizza stone(BC cpk says to do this.) he comes out to get a drink right as its time for me to get off my butt and put in my pizza. But since Joseph was already in the kitchen I asked him to. My sweet husband put in a pizza and set the timer. 12 minutes later the timer goes off, and I finally get off my butt to go get my pizza. I grab a plate, turn off the timer, turn off the oven, and open the door. And I immediately want to cry. Joseph and I had a miscommunication, and he cooked me a whole frozen pepperoni pizza. Which I struggled with because in my mind I was going to be eating sweet BBQ chicken pizza. I sucked it up, and the pizza was delicious. And even though I was upset, I am so thankful for my husband, and his servant heart.

Maternity Shorts

Our first summer married I bought a cute pair of gap shorts. Size 6(did I mention it was like two weeks after I got married, that wedding diet paid off!) I wore them all summer and loved them. I’m not one to like short shorts, so these were perfect. The next summer, I was able to fit in them, but not freshly laundered. Our third married summer I majorly muffin topped in them quite a bit a few times. So now that is it approaching our fourth summer married, and I’m knocked up, there is NO WAY I could fit into these shorts. So today, I made my first pair of maternity shorts. I know, I’m only 8 weeks, but I couldn’t fit into them anymore anyways, and I’m SUPER bloated. I can definitely see myself living in these. I chose to do a green band because I love this color green, and I didn’t have any neutral colors. So here they are.WP_20140526_001WP_20140526_002WP_20140526_003WP_20140526_004WP_20140526_005WP_20140526_006 

Perfect fit for a growing summer belly. The band is super long, so I’ll definitely trim it down sum, but for now, they’re a wonderful option.

Week 7 in review: rainbow update

This week has been a bit rough. I have just had a constant feeling of unwellness. My RE gave me some diclegis which I started Friday night. Saturday I was super groggy, but felt fine. Today I took an afternoon nap, but the grogginess was nothing like it was Saturday, and I ate well. Like actually came up with what we should eat, which is the first time in a couple of weeks. I’m finding that I don’t really ever WANT any food, so when I do, Joseph is quick to get it. I do enjoy Sonic Ice water(like always!) but that’s about all. I have stopped taking my baby aspirin because of the hemorrhage, but I’m still on my Prenatal, metformin, and added in a colace stool softener, and diclegis. My ultrasound on Thursday 7w4d showed the baby measuring 7w1d(which she assured me is ok) with a heartbeat of 148. My hemorrhage hasn’t gotten any smaller, so I’m still taking it easy, so Joseph and I decided I would not be watching our friends boys anymore. Just the added stress wasn’t worth it. I also went on an interview this week, and have two job offers for the fall. Joseph and I have been discussing which would be best for our growing family, but the decision doesn’t have to be made until Wednesday, so while we’re 90% certain, I’m going to hold off on declaring anything.

How far along: this update is for 7 weeks

Total weight gain: –5 lbs from prepregnancy

Maternity clothes: No, but I feel like looser belly areas make the nausea seem less.

Sleep: Better now that I am going to bed earlier.

Best moment of this week: Hearing the heart beat at 7 weeks 4 days

Miss anything: Not really.

Size of baby: raspberry

Food cravings/aversions: aversions to EVERYTHING.

Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of mayonnaise

Have you started to show yet: Just the bloat, and its bad!

Gender: We both think boy now. we’ll know in about 9 weeks!

Labor signs: too early..

Belly button in or out: In, but I can hardly wait for it to be out!

Wedding rings on or off: I’m pretty bad about remember to wear rings, but just because I’m forgettful.

Happy or moody most of the time: Easily Cranky.

Looking forward to: Last ultrasound with the RE 8 weeks 4 day.week8

I am fairly certain that 99.9% of this is bloat from my inability to defecate.

Job offer quandry

School 1. Small private school I have been substituting at all year. This position would be a full time, but made of two part times. I would do part time middle school math, and part time librarian. This school is 20 minutes from my house, hours are 7:45-2:30. I know the teachers, administration, and kids.

School 2. Local public high school. 12 minutes from my house. Not certain the subjects I would be teaching. I really like the principal, and the seem open to letting me challenge my students. I had an interview with them yesterday, it went well, but they are interviewing more candidates over the next two weeks. Salary is 128% of school 1’s salary. Hours are 8:45-3:45(I would have to stay until probably 4:15.)

Big District. I have signed a conditional offer of employment from big district . This essentially means that they will hire me, but they’re not certain which school. Which initially I was fine with, until I really think about how some schools are 50+ minutes from my house. Plus the HR guy told me to expect 12+ hour days. With two new foster kiddos(who we can hardly wait for) and a baby coming in January, that seems daunting. This 144% of School 1’s salary. Hours are 7:40-2:40, but with a possible 50 minute commute.

So…What to do? To put into perspective I made 15% of school 1’s salary this year, and we were fine. So, money doesn’t super matter, but the whole reason I’m going back to work is to make money to pay off our second mortgage, and buy me a new(to me) car. It’d also be nice if I could some how get enough to finish at least PART of our basement.

In terms of stress, School 2 I feel like would bring the most stress. Then Big District, then school 1. So, opinions? If had a solid offer from school 2, which would you choose? Also, conditional offer of employment, I can back out of that right?

6 week in review: rainbow update

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This week(6w6d), we had a scare and had to go to the ER. I have a sub chorionic hemorrhage, but we did have an ultrasound where we saw the babies flickering heart measuring 126 bmp.

Symptoms this week:

Sleepy. Nothing sounds good. Constant nagging nausea.

Week 6 review

How far along: this update is for 6 weeks

Total weight gain: –5 lbs from prepregnancy

Maternity clothes: No, but I feel like looser belly areas make the nausea seem less.

Sleep: Better now that I am going to bed earlier.

Best moment of this week: Seeing the heart beet at our 6 week 4 day ultrasound.

Miss anything: Not really.

Size of baby: blueberry.

Food cravings/aversions: aversions to EVERYTHING.

Anything making you queasy or sick: car rides, hunger, being pregnant. Lol. I’m just queasy.

Have you started to show yet: Just the bloat

Gender: We both think boy now. we’ll now in about 10 weeks!

Labor signs: too early..

Belly button in or out: In, but I can hardly wait for it to be out!

Wedding rings on or off: I’m pretty bad about remember to wear rings, but just because I’m forgettful.

Happy or moody most of the time: Easily Cranky.

Looking forward to: Ultrasound Thursday at 7 weeks 4 daysWP_20140518_001

Subchorionic hemmorhage

Today I bled. Bright reddish-pinkish blood. Yesterday and today I had cramping. This afternoon we went to the ER. This evening we finally got back for our ultrasound. Our baby has a heart beat of 126. And I have a small subchorionic hemmorhage.

i am to take it easy for three days and followup with our RE.

thankful baby is growing strong. Praying baby stays growing strong.
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