Monthly Archives: February 2015

Back to school.

Tomorrow is my last day of maternity leave. Monday is going to be unbelievably difficult.

I’m scared. They are irrational fears, but real ones.

-I’m afraid Calvin’s going to feel abandoned.

-I’m afraid he’s going to love my mom more than he loves me.

-I’m afraid my mom is going to know him better than I do.

-I’m afraid he’s going try to forget me a bit.

once again, I know they’re irrational fears, but I have them. It’s only for 5 weeks, then I have spring break. Then after that 7 weeks til I get to be a sahm to my sweet baby boy.

tears will flow freely on Monday. All prayers and kind thoughts are appreciated 🙂

tomorrow I’m not leaving the house, I’m going to spend all day with Calvin.

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Breaking the baby.

Joseph and I joke about breaking the baby. When we say this, we are talking about encouraging behavior we don’t want to become permanent. (these are all our personal preferences, I am not in anyway discrediting these parenting styles, they just are not what we want to be the what Calvin expects.) the main one is holding while he sleeps, or until he’s asleep. Usually we put him down in his crib or basket awake, and he falls asleep. We don’t let him cry, but we will let him whimper or fuss, if he starts crying, we intervene with some back patting, shushing, maybe a strong hand
on his chest. We’ll pop the paci back in if it falls out. And if he escalates his cry, we’ll pick him up, calm him down, then try it again.

however, with these gas issues, the fact that he’s now going through the 8 week growth spurt(I nursed for two hours straight this morning), and how I have to go back to work in a week, I’m breaking the baby.

I’m holding til sleep, then holding as he sleeps. Nursing to sleep. He’s slept in our bed so far today.

but I only have 7 days left. I know I only have to work for12 weeks, then ill be home with my boy, but he’ll be five months old! So I’m going whatever I want over the next we’ve days.


also, any mommy have some insight to how growth spurts go when you are back at work? Are they hungry and cranky at daycare and extra clingy at night?

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Gas update

We’re giving gas drops every feeding. For the most part it seems to make the gas less painful. We’re using the football hole to help him when he seems like he’s in pain. If inbetween feedings he’s q pain, we’ve been giving colic-calm gripe water. During feedings we burl at least twice, and get 3-4 burps out at each time. We bicycle his legs quite a bit, but that just seems to annoy him.

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First date post Calvin

We were suppose to go on a day date Monday the 16th since Joe had off work, but we were hit with crazy weather, so we rescheduled for the 20th evening. So yesterday I went to target to get some shoes, shirt, and tights. And a a few more bottles of gas drops. Then went to my parents and left C there for about 45 minutes so I could get my hair cut. Then headed home, nursed Calvin Joe got home, we got ready, and dropped C off at my in-laws around 5:15. His bedtime is 6, so I road in the backseat to make sure he didn’t fall asleep, but he skipped his last two naps of the day. I was actually successful until we pulled in the drive. Anywho. We left him there but we brought his Moses basket, hippo, and swaddle. I feel like my mil thought I was crazy, but I figured its anew environment, as many consistent items he has, the better he’ll do.

Joe and I kinda joked that her babysitting job consisted of feeding him a bottle at 6, changing his diaper, swaddling, singing two minutes of a lullaby, and setting him down. Then he slept until we woke him up at 10 to come home.

but we had a wonderful time. We were going to see a movie, but it got out too late(we wanted him home for his dreamfeed so the latest we could be out was about 9.) so we went to eat at a nice restaurant. We really like it, its italian and used to be one of our favorites, but then Joseph was dx with t1diabetes. So we didn’t go there for four years, but this past birthday of mine, I really wanted to go, so Joe took me there with every intention of ordering a ceasar salad, but we noticed that one of the meals had spaghetti squash as a side, so he asked if he could sub that in for pasta in their chicken carbonara, and they happily did it! So we went there, I had two glasses of wine, we got an appetizer, Joe ordered the chicken carbonara, and I decided to try something new, which was way too spicey and i didn’t like. After dinner we went to Kroger(romantic I know) to get staples for the snow storm we’re getting today. Then Starbucks. We were back at U his parents house by 9, and we just hung out there for about 45 minutes.


Gas gas baby.

My baby has gas. Painful waking up from every nap screaming after 15 minutes gas. Cried in mommies arms for an hour until exhausted myself to sleep gas. Refuse to nurse BC my belly hurts so bad gas.

we’ve done gas drops intermittently, but they will now be at every feeding. Its negative degrees out, so there is no way I’m getting out, but my mom is going to pick up some gripe water to see if that works.

I’ve cried twice today, and I’ve been along with him for 2 hours and twenty minutes. I just feel so helpless.

any suggestions?
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Pump and dump

Tonight I had three glasses of wine. No judgement, I honestly just forgot how much I enjoy a nice red wine. So, I pumped and dumped. I know you don’t have to. Your breast milk, like your blood, doesn’t remain alcholicy. However, I would have to feed Calvin a bottle for his dream feed. I will feed Calvin a bottle when he wakes up around 2 for peace of mind. So the next time I’ll nurse will be around 5 or 6am. If I didn’t pump and dump it would have been 10-11 hours between nursing sessions. In addition to being super uncomfortable, my bed likely would be soaked with leaked breast milk. So as painful as it is to pour milk down the drain, it isn’t physical pain.

I will likely still be busting at the seams for our morning feed, but hopefully not as uncomfortable.

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6 week growth spurt.

Its a doozy. We had finally really started making progress at night(even one five hour stretch and with crib sleeping. Calvin was on a 3-hr schedule. And then boom, it hit us.

Calvin ate every 1.5-2 hours. Wouldn’t sleep unless he was held. Scream and cried for no apparent reason.

hopefully we didn’t mess up everything we had been working towards. 

How having a baby will improve my sex life.

We can do it! Pretty much my entire pregnancy from our first subchorionic hemorrhage at 7 weeks, I’ve been on pelvic rest.

We can do it whenever, no waiting for fertile periods or planning SMEP around ovulation. No holding off one night so we wont deplete the stores for the fertile period.

We can do it in fun positions. No more worrying about gravity assisting sperm.

We can do it more than once in a day( 324 club here we come!)

We don’t have to keep track of when we do it. No charting, or making note, just carefree sexing up my husband.

The more you have it, the more you want it. Bring on the sex!

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