Miscarriage confirmed this morning via ultrasound. We were told to take a 2 month break from trying to conceive to let my hormones stabilize. We are devastated. After 14 month trying for this baby, to have it end so soon seems incredibly unfair. But Joseph and I are confident in God’s plan for our family. I hope during these two months that we can do many things I wouldn’t be able to do if pregnant or trying. For instance, this Sunday, I had helped organize a ziplining and cheesecake factory girls night with ladies in my small group, if I was pregnant, I shouldn’t be ziplining. But now, i’m not pregnant, and upset about it. So I’m ziplining and eating LOADS of cheesecake.
Other things I plan to do during this no baby time, take advil for every ache and pain I have. Tylenol is nothing, seriously nothing. I may as well eat TicTacs, they taste better and offer about the same amount of pain relief.
I’m going to use a heating pad for cramps, I’m having quite a few of those right now, and I can use a heating pad! It seriously makes me so happy!
Enjoy having sex for fun. Not for one moment would I say that Joseph and I’s intimacy is lacking, but being able to have sex not for the purpose of creating a life relieves a certain amount of pressure when it come to doing the deed. We will enjoy that.
Continue losing weight. January to March I lost about 16 pounds. Between March and July I gained about 6 back, but then from July to my BFP I had lost 8 more pounds. I’ve been carb bingeing since Monday, but before that, I was only 6.6 pounds heavier than Joseph and I got married. So maybe I can keep doing that.
In high school, I went to Germany for a week with a school group. We went to a place called HofBrauHaus in Munich. There is actually one in Newport KY just 1.5 hours north of us. I have wanted to take a weekend trip there and enjoy some liters of beer and their OktoberFest atmosphere. So we hopefully will do that this year.
Fall is my favorite time of the year, it will be great, and I am so thankful for my sweet husband Joseph through all of this. He truly is amazing, and I am so thankful for him.