I have no issues sharing my journey with anyone. Well anyone except one person, but that’s a story for another day. I have used our real names on this blog. There are pictures of my husband and myself in this blog. I’m not really doing this anonymously, yet in my every day life, only two people know about this blog. One of which I don’t think ever checks it, which is fine. But why don’t I want more people in my life to read this blog? Because of the expectations. I talk about my cycle, when I’m ovulating, if we’re doing medicated cycles when my appts are and such. And I don’t want many people in my life to run into me at Kroger right after a follicle scan and ask me about it. I don’t want to go to family gatherings(which frequently happen on the day my period is due for some terrible reason) and have everyone wondering if my pregnancy test is finally positive.
A I don’t want the judgement. Many women in my family and life are blessed enough to be fertile. To not have to try. Meaning no opks, no temping, no regular vaginal ultrasounds. So as supportive as they may be, they aren’t able to understand why I spend hundreds of dollars a cycle. They want to tell me to quit testing at all, just wait til my period doesn’t show. Or maybe I’m really reasons too hard. All of these are reasons I don’t want my friends and family to know this blog.
because I don’t want to deal with educating these people. Because I feel like it is their job to seek out education. I’m resentful of how little people actually know. And why the heck don’t the care enough to learn more?